I saw C for the first time today. She's the lady that will be my counsellor until January, and then another woman named J is taking over. It kinda sucks that C will only be there until January, because she seems really nice. The only thing I didn't like was the fact that she used the term "self-mutilation" once. I hate that word.

But as I said, she seemed really nice and she is the type of woman to ask questions. I trust her, I really do, but I don't know how much I'll be...

Okay, lets just get to the point.

Recently I've been thinking about leaving TH.

It's great here, and I'd definitely miss it. Things aren't getting better but I think I'm stronger.

I just feel like I don't fit in here anymore.

I don't know.

I dont want to leave! but I feel like I'm getting in the way if i stay. I really don't want to go, though...

Just going through some stuff today, and deciding.
It's not about what I can or cannot do.
It's about what I will do.

I will keep taking my meds.
I will eat healthier.
I will exercise more.
I will put effort into studying, when that time comes.

And most of all,
I will allow myself to succeed.

Disorders or not, I am the only person holding myself back. The reality is, all my friends, and those that work with me,...

Well, things I forgot to mention.

When I was walking up the driveway on the way back from New World yesterday evening, I noticed that one of our neighbours had a giant rubbish bin (you know, those massive metal things that are taller than the majority of humans) sitting prominently and easily accessible in their front yard. Suddenly I clicked. I could put the melted mess that was at one stage a recycling bin in there! I told Sam, and she agreed it was a good idea, and helped me move...

Finally December, everyones just talking about christmas. It's just going to be stressful and full of family arguments, reminds of how much everyone hates me and why we don't see the family except for christmas.

Mom's just been having a go at me all day, reminding me how worthless i am.
I don't see a point in anything, in christmas, people just disappoint and they wonder why I won't trust anyone. Being alone is easier and it's not like I get a choice lately anyway, just shut up...

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But, I may have made a breakthrough. Whilst I was laying on my bed, clutching my head because I had another headache I realised . . . it's likely to be eye-strain. Now, this is not good news. I got new lenses only a year or so ago, and at 24, my eyes shouldn't be changing that fast. But I'm keeping well hydrated, so it isn't dehydration, and I notice the headaches get worst when I try and read. So I suppose a trip to the optometrist is due in the not too distant future.

Tuesday -...

Cut my arm up. Want to overdose. Want to get better. Want to die. Want to cry. I hate this cycle.


I can't keep going.