I had a pretty good week last week I guess. Nothing major happened. But yet this week, still nothing has happened and I find my negative thoughts have returned.

My motivation has been down the toilet for a while but yet I still get upset when I don't do well on something. I haven't felt any strong emotions but yet I'm still sitting here thinking all negatively. I'm a failure who will never get anywhere and I feel ugly and wish I could get hit by the nearest bus or something because...

I have awesome-sauce-um news! it's cool, like, cool cool cool.

Today I found out that I'm in music! I enjoy it, because, duh, we're learning how to play the guitar! So far I've learned a little bit. We have a weird name, and well, we don't have the usual teacher because she's pregnant again... Last year she was pregnant with her first child, and now she's pregnant with another kid...

^^ I'm. Going. To. Ask. Astornauts. In. Spage. A. Question! Yea, Yea, Go George, Go...

No one cares, no one wants you around Charli.... You might aswell just go...

It's not like anyone would notice

Well this will probably be the first positive blog of mine.
I decided that life is worth living, and i want to get better. I know it's gonna be hard but i actually might make it. I haven't had suicidal thoughts for 5 days. I know it may not be a big achievement but it is to me. I hope the thoughts don't come back. The voices haven't gone away.

Im sick. I hate being sick. Had to stay home. I can't even stay at home alone anymore. Maybe someday.

Heeeyyy.

Apperantly I have an obsession with mustaches and now need a mustache intervention.... Or at least that's what my friend said.... Because I put my finger over my mouth and said "I have a mustache!"... ^^' I seriously wish I had a mustache... Because... it's just... a mustache... is cool.... Yea... I need an intervention because of fo-serious mustachio lovin'.

Lmfao. This is also the friend that use to have day dreams of shaving off this teacher's...

So many pills in front of me...want to take them all, I want it all to end...

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Home by myself all day... I don't think i can make it through the day..
I don't trust myself....

My name is Hope.

Nothing less, nothing more.

I'm a skmple minded person.

With complex situations.

I am always able to help others.

Nothing really gets in my way to the point where I'll give up.

My smile means a lot to me.

My laughter even more.

But my friends mean everything to me.

You'll never see me cry,

But if you do-leave me alone.

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