I wish I could get help.

I wish I could tell someone how I feel.

I wish the feelings would go away.

But then I wish I could destroy myself.

I can't get help until I get worse.

Is it worth living in this half life forever, or is it worth getting worse so someone can help me get better?

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My therapist told me I should have cut off connections with her because she's part of my "dark" past. (His words, not mine) It's times like these I really wish I would have listened. But I have to get past it, Jamie is watching my every move:\
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-When I was little all I did was try to please my dad.
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Spent the day in bed today. Not been that well, really. Dozing on and off and watching crappy TV.
Had a headache and mum said to take paracetamol because apparently ibuprofen is too strong. Told them that because the paracetamol wasn't sugar coated it'd make me sick but they said I'd be fine.
So now I'm sat on my bed, not only feeling bad, but now I feel like throwing up too. Fml.
They just think I'm being fussy. But honestly, if they had to taste something that horrible every...

Don't know How I feel. Just know I feel so alone. Clinging on to life by the skin of my teeth. One more Push and I'm going to fall further than I've ever fallen before and hope I never get back up again.

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I apologize for the rant. I'm just...

Today was amazing.
I went to Leda's house. It seems like its been so long since I saw her last. We went to the movies I almost cried when it was time to leave, but I'm allowed to visit her more often now. And she's allowed over.
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I'm falling apart right now but i can't let anyone see that. I have to keep it together somehow but its getting so much harder to fake a smile and pretend that everythings ok. I guess i have no choice though. I have to be ok...I am ok. If i say it enough times maybe i'll believe it. Who knows.
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I've put on weight since Monday, don't know what to do, too tired to exersize, just want to curl up in a ball and sleep, musn't stop moving though! I had too much last night, chocolate and booze = weight gain!

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My Dearest Blade,

I can feel you looking at me, I can feel you stare from your drawer, you want to be free from your home, you are good, you want to help me! I'm denying you happiness, I'm punishing you for doing all you know, all you ever have done, I even feel sorry for you, a fucking blade.

What's wrong with me? I need to cut but I can't, I need food but I've eaten too much already today, I can't keep busy, there's nothing to do to be distracted, I'm such a loser,...