My room is cleaner, although I'm getting a bit obsessed about it. xD
But I will have it completely tidied. It hasn't been properly tidied for a couple of years.

I've been keeping my food intake low. I don't know what calorie intake is in the range for eating disorders and I can't ask on here, I'm scared I'll get told it's not allowed, because of not posting calorie numbers.

I think I've lost weight. I don't know. I think I have.

I hope I have....

It's not always because I hate myself, not always, it can be because I find myself ok, I know I shouldn't like myself, but sometimes I do, and I know it's wrong, I lie, I'm selfish, I'm week, I'm evil, I'm an attention seeker, nobody likes these things, these things make a bad person. me. I'm a fat ugly horrible person.

My head hurts and I feel sick, a sign that I'm not meant to be.

Y'know I was told today that nobody cares about my life - I thought she was my friend,...

Sometimes i'm pretty sure everyone just ignores me >_< Either that or i'm being told i am too young to be staff, which i get told regularly: i'm not even that young :/
Whenever i make a post asking for advice it is never really answered, i might get one post possibly two sometimes; i sometimes feel as though they are ignored :/
I feel as though since i've become staff i can't really ask for advice, i know that's not the case but you know.
This isn't aimed at anyone, just...

it sickens me how men can beat women and not give a shit, how grown fucking men can "touch" and r*pe and beat little kids and think its ok, they don't care if that kid will grow up and have mental problems, reoccurring nightmares,and be scarred for life. I hate how these people only go to JAIL for this, in my opinion, rapists, murders, child molesters, and anyone who has beaten anyone without a good reason, should get the death penalty, no not a lethal injection, something worse, way worse,...

well, iv become bulimic, im back to being depressed, almost everyday i think of suicide, im starting to become anorexic, im single and in love with a girl states away, my life is a mess.

Well, I guess I have a boyfriend kinda. As you can see I haven't changed my relationship status, even though we have been dating for a week.

My problem is, is that it's a long distance relationship. It's over the Internet and I don't know if it will work out. I don't have a home phone, we got rid of it because of telemarketers, prank callers, and my last boyfriend, who was a crazy stalker. Also I don't have a cellphone.

I also don't believe I'm cut out for long distance...

Why did i let them all move back in with me? >_<

My mom has done nothing but clean and shout at me, my bf just got annoyed at me for telling him he can't walk around the house naked anymore My parents keep arguing about my training and whether i can race anymore.

I was so glad to be out of hospital, but now i wish i was just by myself, so i can just curl up and cry...i want this to end...

It never lasts, the feelings, they always come back and they get worse. There's no way out for me, I always feel worse and worse and worse. When i try and help it they fight back, when I do what feels right, it's wrong. I'm hated and unloved, people don't care about me, I'm just a joke. They avoid me, they don't want to know me, they can't face the facts, I'm a mess. I cut again, I hadn't...

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