My mom said that if I ever self harmed again, she'd put me into inpatient therapy because I have "no reason to self harm" and, well, of course she thinks my suicidal thoughts are exaggerated.
But, I've been thinking.

No, the thoughts haven't gone away like I said.
I've lied to my therapist about the last time I've self harmed.
The therapist is already suggesting I see a psychiatrist, and is going to talk to my mom about this next time I see her.Once she does,...

Burning shivers and silent screams. Contradictions of my mind and body and surroundings that are some interrelated disconnected cyclical chaos.

See? That was ridiculously wordy and made no sense. But it’s still exactly straight the words from my head.

Writing lately, that’s what I’ve learned. It’s that when I let my pen exactly write my thoughts without clarifying or translating to real people phrases and expressions, they come out right somehow, but still fundamentally...

This past week was my first week back at school. Felt like shit the whole time. Acted like i was happy, yeah right. Pushed anyone who asked if i was ok away. Just tried not to get noticed.
tried to kill myself again. No one found out. Luckily. I just wish everyone would forget that i existed. Im worthless.
Im such an idiot. I actually believed i was getting better. Im not going to. Im hopeless.
I hate myself. Even a 7 year old me there is something wrong with me, and my...

I don’t know how to get through this week. It’s going to be incredible hard. There’s only one thought in my head right now, “Kill yourself Emma.” No one even cares. I don’t want to be alive anymore. I’ve pushed everyone away and I have nothing left. I don’t even have a reason to fight now.

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I feel like I can't hold on any longer, I'm just slipping more and more everytime my parents insult me or hurt me or critise me.
I don't know what to do , I've been told to move out because I said that i was fed up with the way they treated me. I hate the way the push me so hard, they told me off the other day for getting a B in an essay.

I don't think I can hold on for much longer, I'm breaking and I don't think I can get through it this time..

This might not sound like a big deal to most people, but it is to me. As I've said on this site before, I love Japanese culture, art, architecture, animation, pretty much everything Japanese in general. Well, my aunt got me a bento box for Christmas. A bento box is like a Japanese lunchbox, but the contents can get pretty artistic. In Japan, bento lunches are either very simple, or very complex. Since I'm a beginner, I'm starting simple.

I'm making a special Japanese bento lunch for...

Been so dippy today.....
Just completely out of it......
Probably will get lost tomorrow...
My friend was the same and we're hopeless on our own together.
It shall be fun when the police come and drive us home... All 3 hours of it from Hull.
I think I'm sleepy