recently, I promised someone I wouldnt cut or hurt myself for a while. Even more recently, it has been a stretch to keep that promise. I find myself tracing old scars and putting haloween tattoos that look like injuries to keep myself from hurting. i have also been dipping tissues in red food die to resemble blood stains... Music and exercise have been my only escapes. I've been eating more normally too, but I know I'm over exercising. I hope Christmas will magically fix my life. I know it wont,...

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Well three days until christmas...I'm not excited at all :/
I have such a busy week, working christmas eve until 6:30 and the back at work again boxing day at 6:30am -_-. Going to be working all the sales, i've been given a lot more hours than i'm contracted and i've somehow got to fit in revision for my january exams.

Busy, Busy, Busy, Just breathe..

Fat.
Ugly.
Horrible.
Out of place.
Worthless.
Useless.
Fake.
Unfit.
Bland
Unwanted
Unneeded.

In the past two days I have been called all these things and now they are beginning to go to heart. I don't want them to mess up my accomplishments in fixing/stopping SH and ED.

But what is to stop me? the worlds gonna end and I'm not wanted or needed any way...

I get frustrated so easy right now and it's really embarrassing.

First time was like three days ago or something like that. I was in my computer class and we had to troubleshoot our computers, I got frustrated after two seconds and was nearly in tears. I was so done. and Mr. M. noticed and talked to me about it, apologizing and saying how it'd be okay. I knew it would be okay. :/ I was just frustrated.

And today I had to take my art project back to my computer class to...

I don't know what to do with them!
My community support worker, Leisa, is getting me stuff I don't have (using flexifund) pretty much just because she can. I feel weird about it. I mean it's really nice, but this is stuff that I would usually wait ages and ages to get. And furthermore, it's not cheap stuff either, and it's for the most part exactly the same as what I would choose for myself. I had pretty much no say in the matter. She just decided she was doing it.

So I'm getting...

I did not sleep at all last night. Maybe 30 - 45 minutes around 7, but pretty much not at all. It was the heat. It was a consistent 22 degrees ALL night (celsius, this is), with about 80% humidity. My brain and my body just went, nope, we're not complying.

As a result I've spent most of today in a barely-awake haze. I'm so completely exhausted. Leisa said I wasn't to have an afternoon nap because then I wouldn't sleep tonight, and I was sorely tempted, especially as my flatmate had...

hey guys..Well as this thread says i'm going to leave for a while. I just need to figure stuff out. im gonna be on here for a little while today. Sorry guys.

See you (hopefully) in the New year!

Hope you guys are ok. <3

Goshdarned humidity. My palms have sweated basically all day. Washing them with cold water is the ONLY thing that helps, but I don't want to wash my hands too much because I don't want my flatmate to think I'm OCD or something like that. Unfortunately, I have mild eczema, and I'm allergic to my own sweat, so having sweaty palms almost constantly is making it worse, and sometimes it really stings, like when something like shampoo gets on the raw skin.

My flatmate is calling...

Myself and my flatmate both got superbly bored today. It was just one of those days where there was very little to do.

I changed my sheets, but I haven't done my washing yet because tomorrow's forecast is for rain, and I would like to hang my washing outside this time, because it smells better that way. I've also written a note on my hand to remind myself to vacuum my bedroom.

I ate the world's most delicious chips today. It was worth the wait. I bought them on Friday,...