Even when I talk to epople they either don't talk to me or give me short answers. In a place I've always felt comfortable and like i fitted in, I've never felt so alone.
I'm used to being ignored generally, but lately it's really getting to me. I'm reaching out to people and they either don't notice or don't care, I can't take much more..

It's coming to an end for me :/

The feelings back, the want, the need. I miss it. I feel like I need it. I want to go to bed and never wake up. I want to drink until I black out. It's to much. I want to rip my eyes out. I want to pull the veins from my arms until there not connected anymore. I want to end it all. The pain, the stress, the need. Everything. I want it to end. I'm afraid to be alive anymore, but I'm afraid to die. I hate it. I feel like I did two years ago.

I just want scrape the slate clean. Remove all the bad thoughts from this blog, and create a happy place for me and perhaps, even for others to share their ideas. I want this blog to become something interesting, maybe informative, and somewhere I come to be interesting and have fun. NO BAD DAYS WILL LEAK INTO THIS BLOG!!!! Okay guys, thats the idea, I'm going to put this into action!!

love you all inappropriately! xx

~Brenna

I have so much homework and I dont know how to do most of it & I have like no motivation to do anything or move or get up or anything.

I just want to sit here & cry.

I feels so fat & disgusting I want to feel beautiful & pretty, I want to loose weight so bad but I have to eat dinner soon & I really don't want to go back to my ED life..

I'm so tired & I have a headache & I really just need some motivation & LOADS of positivity...

Me and her are both cutters, we've done it so long and today she texts me "I'm sorry" (we promised not to do it anymore) and I don't know what to do...i dont have Java on my phone...if you can support me via msg, that would be much appreciated. I feel so very bad.

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