So my dislike towards this authoritarian system where our privacy rights are being curbed in the name of counter-terrorism has been growing. It was recently provoked by me being treated like a criminal at the airport for having £2,000 "undeclared" on me in cash, travelling within the EU. Firstly, I don't need to declare any amount of money when travelling within the EU, and travelling outside, I can take up to €10,000 (about £8,000 I think) without declaring. Yet they picked on me for...

I want to be able to say I'm happy, and actually mean it. I want to be able to eat a piece of cake, without crying or purging or anything else. I want to not keep finding ways to hurt myself. I slipped up, again. Found another blade, sliced my wrist open. It felt so..amazing. And yet I'm so ashamed. I can't stop wanting to hurt myself. I can't help that I just want to stop breathing, but I don't want to leave E.

I told E that I've only been half-ass trying to recover. I promised I...

I want to be happy.

Fuck this shit. I'm going to be happy.

I don't care about him. Let him do what he likes. I don't need him, I don't need the friends who aren't really friends and leave me for him and I don't need to listen to him.

I'm going back to school soon. And I'm going to get the best grades I can. I'm going to do writing. I'm going to apply for uni. I'm going to read good books. I'm going to go out with my friends. I'm going to get my ears pierced....

What a revelation, right? Not. My family and so forth were constantly blaming my on-going "poorness" and inability to pay bills on my poor budgeting skills. The truth is, you can only get your money to stretch so far - you can't create it out of nothing if you need it to make that one extra bill. You just end up in debt.

Now I'm getting more money. About double what I was getting before. Before, after my rent had been redirected, I got $86 a week. Now, after my rent's been...

Oh you want me to 'go die'? Oh okay that's cool I'm glad to know that you won't care... :/

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Set my alarm for sunrise, intending to get up and go for a run. You know what they say about the road to hell being paved with good intentions though . . . lol. Eventually dragged my ass out of bed at, get this, half past one in the afternoon. I thought it was still like eleven in the morning. So much for that. So yeah, I didn't go for a run. I'm a little disappointed in myself, but not too much, because what I really feel like doing today (aside from eating and smoking) is playing RuneScape....

The title says it all. As much as I love Live Help, I just don't have the amount of time it takes to do it properly. But I love Help Link too so all is gooooood.

Watched Doctor Who today. It was very exciting. There are going to be dinosaurs in this series. Yay.

Also spent half the day with a girl I like. She's not interested in me, but she's a great friend. It's kinda bittersweet, but I love her being my friend.

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I mean seriously. My cat does it, Sam's cat does it. You'll just be sitting somewhere in a quiet house, and suddenly hear the sound of a cat lapping water . . . coming to your ears via soundwaves being transmitted from the bathroom. Now, I know from various T.V. shows that toilet water isn't that dirty (unless you've recently pissed in it and not flushed), and that cats are sensible and don't drink things that will make them sick. Although my cat's a bit of an idiot, and he still eats Cheeky's meat...