Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost...

The fact that the scales are gone is freaking me out.

I was doing better. I was eating more. I was thinking less. I was feeling happier.

Now I'm triggered. Seriously triggered. I need those scales. I need to know I'm not gaining.

I don’t know what the fuck to do.

Well I do.

I know exactly what to do.

Yup, hello no food. Hello laxatives and stomach cramps. Hello exercising all night. Hello drinking shit loads...

I went to my therapist appointment and she wants me to see a psychiatrist. If I see a psychiatrist, my mom would only want me to see her once because we can't afford to see both a therapist and psychiatrist, and my mom still thinks nothing's wrong with me.
I'd be seeing the psychiatrist for self harm and a possible diagnosis of depression. My mom is a shitty listener and didn't hear the depression part until I told her, and my mom pretty much got pissed off and said that I really must be...

So as most of you probably know Lex (Jar of lemons) came to stay at mine for a few days and it was amazing. She's such a lovely girl (: We had such fun.
She came to mine on Saturday and I met her at the train station i was nervous as we had never met before but we got on fine and it was really good (:
Then we went back to mine and chilled for a bit. We brought lots of kinder eggs (even a polish one) I don't think I've ever brought so many in my life We went on omegle a lot and...

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I don't mean to get everything wrong, i try to make you proud, I try not to be so much of a failure.

Today I'd been up less than an hour and my mom told me she was sick of seeing my face and that i should go out.
I still don't know what i did wrong, I'd hardly spoken to my family, i've learnt not to.
I try to please them, i try to make them proud, i want them care about me and love me. I hate the way they treat me and i know the majority of it's my fault but i don't know...

Had an ok weekend. Started lying about how i feel again.

Should be happy but for some reason i can’t. People tell to be happy. I feel like im incapable of being happy. I have a roof over my head, good parents, most the time good friends. And yet im still not happy. I guess my life doesnt think i deserve to be happy. Somedays i wish i was just happy like a regular person for an hour or 2. Not have my problems to worry about.

i’ve been told that im ungrateful because...

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I can't believe my grandad is doing it again, It's tearing the family apart. I hate watching my parents so upset and the fact that he doesn't give a crap.
I can't handle it, I'm just finding myself pushing everyone away, even the person i love the most. But yet i really need someone to talk to right now, i feel so alone >_< I really need a hug.