No, I don't want you to praise me. I want you to respect me. Listen to me. Trust me. I want you to know that I may be a near hollow shell but unfortunately im part of your sad fucked up life. I am not like you anymore. We are different people. I'm sick and tired of putting on a fucking fake smile on my face just to leave the house for you. I'm done father. You may hate me, but i just don't care anymore. Tell me im worthless again. I'll believe you. Hell, I think I already do.

It would be so much easier for everyone to live if i was dead. I just take up space. Today everyone has treated me like i don't do anything.

i just can't handle life anymore. I just want to say bye to all of my friends on TH and everyone else. Im gonna try to live but i can't make promises. No one is gonna read this anyways. No one will even notice or care that im gone. I don't have many friends. i don't deserve friends. I don't deserve to be loved. im just a horible, and pathetic...

Because I'll stay in bed,
Replaying all the words you said
A replay of the unemotional words,
After what I saw what you did, and even the things I heard.
I knew, I'd still love you.
Even after all we've been through.

Answer my prayers,
And come back to me
It was so strong, so hard to believe
It all went wrong.
Come back to me
I'm going to bleed for all eternity.

Why is it so important to you
...

I definitely think I have an eating disorder.

That's a scary thought. And hard to admit.

I've kept saying 'I'm falling into one'. But at some point you have to hit the bottom.

I think the fact that I can't stop now is scary. Before, I'd go through periods of being fine, or I'd even spend only half the day having disordered thoughts and behaviours.

But the last few days have made me think more about it.

The fact that I had...

Gahh, i'm so fed up..I wonder sometimes why i bother! In the space of 5 mins someone shouted fuck you at me and someone came into chat accusing me of stuff i didn't do.
Everything is my fault lately, i just cause trouble, i don't even know why i'm here anymore :/

I just want to thank all of you who have been there for me, it means a lot. You're all amazing. Don't know what i'd do without you. I really don't deserve amazing people like you. So thank you and i love you <3

Reasons to Live:

• Football
• Friends

Reasons to Die:

• I hate Life
• Find every day harder
• Good for nothing
• A waster
• Destined for doom
• Selfish
• Hopeless

I'm trying to stay positive i really am it's just so hard. Want to OD and Cut so badly

Wish i didn't feel so alone. Wish i could just open up but i won't let myself not after last time. Just struggling on my own; but I'm not going to let myself get hurt or let anyone else get hurt again. Besides i don't deserve friends. I deserve to be on my own and alone forever, i'm a horrible excuse of a person.

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