so , i've been thinking alot and i honestly miss the past. i dont know what part about the past i miss the most. being close to certin people . or just not being as depressed. everything is different than when i was younger. the world around me is changing so fast i can hardly even capture whats even going on anymore.
my heads always ina daze. i dont realize things i normallly would. i can feeel my depression slowly coming back and its hurting. i dont like this feeling.
i dont know...

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TeenHelp Newsletter #13 - April 15th 2011 - http://www.teenhelp.org

Welcome to the TeenHelp Newsletter! Our Newsletter contains a lot of useful information about our current work, including updates to our site and services, work with our partners and affiliates, details of upcoming events, short bits of advice, interesting...

My girl comes home from her signal-less middle-of-nowhere holiday tomorrow. I'm so excited about being able to text whenever I want again.
And and and I'm going down there on Sunday until Saturday. SO EXCITED.
Make it Sunday already, I want hugs NOW.
<3

I have to go to my grandad's today. Brother and I are dropping off a card for my cousin's birthday. It's not that I don't want to go. Well it is. It's just that after everything that happened I don't feel comfortable around them, especially without my dad. And I'm still having nightmares about them. Dad told me that when everything was sorted out, the nightmares would go away. And they haven't. It's my cousins birthday and she's 19 today (WTF I remember her turning 11!) so I know that going

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i want to give up on quitting cutting,and just on life.. i have gone 9 almost 10 days without cutting..but i may cut later i want to so bad.. today my dad noticed the cuts on my arm,i told him lies..i don't think he believes me ..i think he will find out soon,he wants me to tell him if something is bothering me but i just can't..

i was so depressed today,a teacher at my school noticed ..

i am thinking about commiting suicide..i even have a plan..i am sorta scared, i think...

Hey guys this my first writing that I like please give me your honest oppinion.

I am not me
By: Emily W.

I woke up today and I looked in the mirror and realized I am not me. When I looked in the mirror I saw a sad and wasted little boy. When I went to school and failed a test I realized I am not me. When I went to a party and got drunk, I realized I am not me. When I got in a car with a buddy who was drunk, I realized I am not me. I am not me, I don't fail tests,...

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I've just had this on my mind for a while so I thought I would vent to anyone who reads this.

Back when me and my friends, Amanda and Brooke, where in 8th grade, we made and pact or a promise. We all said that we were going to be abstinent until marriage, mainly because Brooke's cousin got pregnant and she was in high school.

Fast forward to now, we are 18 and seniors. Well, Brooke broke that promise a few days ago. She did "it" with her boyfriend of two weeks....

I've failed... last night in bed I cut... I couldn't stop myself... I was in the dark and I had to imagine the blood but it felt so good... now I feel shit! I've let myself and everyone else down... but I just can't do it... I can't feel good when I don't cut... but I feel the same when I do... but the release, it feels like an orgasm, good at first and then just bad... I'm no good at life... I hate it and I'm not in the mood for talking but I have to go and work ... i wish i was at school,...