I suck at it. Haha.

The thought of school tomorrow makes me want to cry
Can't face it
Don't make me go
Hate school, hate the people there
they hate me
It's embaressing,
I'm always embaresed.
Fuck.
I can't do it...
Can't go back into the routine
Think I'm going to start SHing again
Don't want to do that...
Might have to though, must keep going
I said I would recover this year,
Said I'd be happy and confident.
I was kidding myself...

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Sometimes my mother makes it really fucking hard for me to tell her shit. No, impossible.


Everything that I do is me playing “a game” to her.
My Self Harm is just me playing a game. It’s just me doing it for attention. Yeah, because I’m going to get fucking addicted to something and do it whenever I feel like shit, which is often, for attention. And then hide it.
My suicidal thoughts aren’t that bad. The school was totally just overreacting when they told you....

School tomorrow.. well, tutoring. :/
So much work to do.
Feel sick. Like, I'm gonna puke.
F.M.L.

Okay, Noone should patronize me. But, I'm scared. You know.. about December? Well, I honestly don't wanna die in flames. I wanna live my life. And, if we make it to 2013, I'm gonna be so relieved and happy. Call me stupid all you guys want. But, I have a right to freely express my emotions and fears without being afraid of being patronized for it. :/

Jose and I are back together. Just thought I'd say that. I'm starting to miss him more and more.
I'm scared to fall in love.
But I can feel myself doing it. Like if I was with him, I know I would be like, I love this kid.
But he doesn't want to fall for me. I want to be catched.
*sigh*

How did everyone spend their new years eve? Mine was fantastic!

Usually I don't do anything fun for New Year's, but this year was a special exception because I actually had someone to spend it with. I went to Jon's house to spend the day with him, and I stayed until some time after the ball drop.

We watched Hetalia, ate New Years soba noodles, which is a Japanese New Year's tradition, and we played some games and cuddled for god knows how long.
...

Happy new years everyone! Hope you all had a good night. And i hope you all have a great year.
I had a good night. Went to my aunts house. Saw my baby cousin. He's 19 months old. So cute. I love him. He's one of the only reasons i stay alive. He makes me happy.
Last night we all sat around playing games and talking.The adults were drunk. My mom let me have spiked eggnog. First time ever having alcohol. My dad would never let me. So another secret to keep.But this one isnt bad....

2011.... This probably has been the worst year of mine so far.Heres all thhe bad things that have happened:
•I started off the year with findiing out my dad and his girlfriend of 2years had just broken up( i was really close to her)
•I got depressed (no one noticed)
•I started cutting (friends found out)
•Got worse (still no one noticed)
•Started not caring about anything inluding school
•Failed a class for...