TeenHelp - Entries for August 2012

Arghhh, school. TRIGGERING strong lang

Posted August 26th 2012 at 10:55 PM by escape♥

Tags anxiety, couple, crying, love, school, self harm, worried

School starts tomorrow. Somebody shoot me now.

I don't know what I'm going to do, how I'm going to hold up. Between all the hard classes, driving school, and a new "excersize plan" I don't know if I'll have time to breath.

E is being optimistic. We met at my old highschool last year, and now I'm moving to a new highschool, (it's a "magnet...

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Happiness is waiting for you<3

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I told you to be fine. triggering

Posted August 18th 2012 at 08:59 PM by escape♥

Tags eating disorder, self harm, self hatred, skinny love, struggling, suicide

Come on skinny love, just last the year.

I slipped up. Sliced my thighs open. It was almost 2 months.

Pour a little salt, we were never here.

I'm scared. The thoughts and urges have never been this bad. E is supposed to come over tomorrow to celebrate my birtday, and he said he's going to take and destroy my blade. I don't know what I'll do with out it.

My my my- my my my- my my my.
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer.

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escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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Why? trig

Posted August 9th 2012 at 03:13 AM by escape♥

Tags death

Why do I even keep posting? Nobody ever comments, nobody cares..
I want to be able to say:
"Goodbye world, I'm never coming back."

But I can't....

So I wait. I don't know what for, I just wait.

escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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Enough. trig

Posted August 8th 2012 at 02:56 AM by escape♥
Updated August 8th 2012 at 03:26 AM by escape♥

Tags eating disorder, pain, self-harm, suicide, thin

I'm so done. I'm trying, and fighting everything with my whole exsistence, and it's never enough. Never fighting strong enough, never good enough, thin enough, deep enough. Never enough.
The self-hatred is growing in me like a cancer. Raging like a bull, getting more and more intense every day.
I would do anything to be thin. And I mean literally anything. You name

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escape♥

Happiness is waiting for you<3

Posted in Rampant Thoughts in the Unforgiving Darkness

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