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Forum: Games and Things May 3rd 2024, 05:47 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 45
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Noun » Adjective

yummy

cat
Forum: Adulting March 21st 2024, 01:50 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 364
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Struggling

Thank you Emmie. I had another interview today and it was OK. But I'm not sure at thid point. I interviewed for SO many jobs but did not get any yet.
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 19th 2024, 04:49 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 133
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Paul "Man in the Iron Lung" dies at age 78 on March 11th, 2024

I watch SBSK on YouTube and Paul was featured back in 2022. The video description states:

"Paul survived polio in the 1950's and has used an iron lung to breathe ever since. He would go on to...
Forum: Depression and Suicide March 17th 2024, 05:41 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 105
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Trying to support myself with my upcoming birthday

Hi everyone,

So I am turning 30 years old this year, in less than one month and I have been a member of TH since October 2011 so approximately 12 and a half years! So I'm turning to this...
Forum: Adulting March 14th 2024, 07:08 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 364
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Struggling

Thank you so much! I went to the school I may be working at to visit and observe. I definitely don't think it is an excellent fit but the question is whether it is a good enough fit to do it till...
Forum: Adulting March 14th 2024, 12:15 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 364
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Struggling

So the iop I was going to turned out to not only not be a good fit for me but the therapist I was assigned 1:1 turned out to be highly unprofessional to which I've filed a formal complaint which took...
Forum: Food and Recipes March 11th 2024, 02:29 PM
Replies: 4
Poll: Popsicles
Views: 121
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Popsicles

I bought zipcicle reusable pieces that are coming in the mail hopefully soon. I realized when I'm in distress I tend to look in the freezer for a freeze pop and I want to make my own. So I got the...
Forum: Depression and Suicide March 7th 2024, 11:58 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 145
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Suicidal thoughts coming back

Hey there Soda,

I am sorry the thoughts and urges are increasing in intensity. Emmie gave you a couple of ideas on what to do about the mental health component of what you posted. I wanted to talk...
Forum: Good Days! February 22nd 2024, 11:21 PM
Replies: 10
Views: 232
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I passed!!

That's awesome! So happy for you!
Forum: Travel and Exploring New Sights February 20th 2024, 03:19 AM
Replies: 9
Views: 302
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Travel Bucket List

That's super cool! I think I'm interested enough I want to visit because it is literally my parents' homeland whereas for you it is a more distant connection. I hope you can find some nice...
Forum: Food and Recipes February 16th 2024, 06:19 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 135
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Favorite Valentine's Day Candy.

I actually really like lollipops too but it is not specific to Valentine's day. Shhh don't tell anyone but I use lollipops to motivate myself for adult-ing tasks lol. :nosweat: But I have not done...
Forum: General February 16th 2024, 06:07 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 212
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Four Different Types of Love

I have all four of these so strongly! I think that I have difficulty expressing community love because the way modern capitalist society is built, I often feel alienated and isolated and alone but I...
Forum: Self Expression February 15th 2024, 12:22 AM
Replies: 11
Views: 224
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I am sorry (Content: Depressive mood)

Thank you for the feedback and encouraging words. I hope so too. I feel better about my problems when I can write about it.



Thank you! It is a hard feeling to go through but I'm working on...
Forum: Travel and Exploring New Sights February 7th 2024, 06:52 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 302
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Travel Bucket List

[Edited]

I like this thread. I really want to go to Lebanon, Israel Finland, France and Japan. Lebanon and Israel because of my heritage, France because I was born there and Finland/Japan because...
Forum: Anxiety and Stress February 2nd 2024, 01:43 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: Reoccurring anxiety
Views: 337
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Reoccurring anxiety

Hey Dawn,

I am sorry to hear that your anxiety is in full swing. I know you mentioned you brought it on yourself. I want to say that it is not something to feel ashamed about. Anxiety is actually...
Forum: Self Expression February 1st 2024, 12:46 AM
Replies: 11
Views: 224
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I am sorry (Content: Depressive mood)

Thank you Luca, Emmie and Dez
Forum: Self Expression January 29th 2024, 04:45 PM
Replies: 11
Views: 224
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I am sorry (Content: Depressive mood)

Thank you!
Forum: Self Expression January 29th 2024, 02:24 AM
Replies: 11
Views: 224
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
I am sorry (Content: Depressive mood)

I am sorry
Though I do not know why
I feel the guilt bubbling inside.

I am sorry
Though I do not know how,
how I became so afraid
to eat
to be present
to be alive
Forum: Goals and Ambitions January 28th 2024, 09:53 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 207
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Accomplishments of 2023!

I moved back to the city I grew up and rented my own apartment for the first time
2022-2023 I made a commitment to show up courageously to therapy sessions and I did and still miss that therapist ...
Forum: Depression and Suicide December 27th 2023, 02:35 AM
Replies: 5
Triggering (Suicide): XP
Views: 228
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: XP

Dear OP,
It sounds tough feeling annoyed by this. I am wondering what you are hoping to gain out of posting this? No one here is going to agree that some people are not built to live unless they...
Forum: Food and Recipes July 9th 2023, 11:34 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 682
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Packed lunch ideas

Uncrustables are great, except there's often a strict no nut policy at the schools I've worked at. I'm guessing you work in an office not in a school so that should work.
I like the dinner leftover...
Forum: Self Harm July 9th 2023, 11:18 AM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

13 hours...whatever
Forum: Friends and Family June 21st 2023, 11:08 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 484
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: When Are We Too Old?

Hello Nick and welcome!

I agree that there is no specific age and it depends on the nature of the relationship. However, I do not consider what you describe as sibling rivalry. I may be of a...
Forum: Technology, Gamers and Gadgets May 8th 2023, 03:02 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 577
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Wireless earphones

this may not be as relevant but I'm going to try to help from a different angle. I recently bought myself earplugs because of my noise sensitivity. The cheap ones never worked so I got ones that were...
Forum: Adulting February 9th 2023, 11:00 AM
Replies: 7
Views: 864
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Learning to drive as a person with disabilities

Thank you everyone. I am currently putting acquiring my license on hold.
This thread can be closed, please.
Forum: Goals and Ambitions December 22nd 2022, 03:27 AM
Replies: 12
Views: 792
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Accomplishments of 2022.

published 4 articles
applied for coding bootcamp
got my permit and consistently took driving classes even though the first two driving schools were horrible experiences
Completed my 3rd year of...
Forum: Food and Recipes December 9th 2022, 10:06 AM
Replies: 10
Views: 1,298
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Chocolate :)

I can't have milk chocolate. I do not like super dark chocolate; basically won't eat anything that is more than 50% cocoa :nosweat: I like chocolate chips and I like non-dairy chocolate covered snack...
Forum: Games and Things December 1st 2022, 10:36 PM
Replies: 104
Views: 1,193
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Alphabet Christmas game. :)

Quilted blankets :nosweat:
Forum: Adulting October 21st 2022, 12:21 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 864
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Learning to drive as a person with disabilities

Thank you so much Dez, Cynefin, Sue!

I had my 2nd lesson a few weeks ago and will be going back into it next week. I'm so nervous and my instructor said he expects I will have to warm up again...
Forum: Adulting October 4th 2022, 01:36 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 864
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Learning to drive as a person with disabilities

I got my learner permit in January 2022. April was my first driving class with an instructor. Since then I've had about 9 lessons I would say? I'm losing track xD

It was across 3 schools. I'm...
Forum: Food and Recipes September 29th 2022, 10:58 PM
Replies: 1,029
Views: 49,877
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What are you eating and/or drinking?

chicken, sweet potato, potato, beet salad
Forum: Good Days! September 29th 2022, 10:57 PM
Replies: 375
Views: 11,768
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What do you love about yourself today?

my joy in singing instrumental soundtracks
Forum: Good Days! September 29th 2022, 10:56 PM
Replies: 251
Views: 7,800
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How have you practiced GLAD today?

G-Having some time to rest today
L-Im really nervous about the holidays but I sorta knew that but it is like I was reminded since they're coming up :nosweat:
A-Assessmrnt and submitted it! ...
Forum: Games and Things September 29th 2022, 10:49 PM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

tomorrow is the last day of September and you haven't paid me back based on our 6 months plan and I'm getting worried. I know you said you care about our friendship and will make sure I'm paid back...
Forum: Music September 29th 2022, 10:47 PM
Replies: 12,000
Views: 495,562
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Song/Quote of the day!

Country roadssssss
take me homeeeee
to a placeee
where I belonggggg


Roll of thunderrrr
hear my cryyy
oh country roadsss
ooh ohhh
Forum: Goals and Ambitions September 29th 2022, 10:44 PM
Replies: 1,109
Views: 38,699
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What have you accomplished today?

my assessment lol
Forum: Good Days! September 29th 2022, 10:43 PM
Replies: 736
Views: 25,057
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Three good things about today

1. stunning weather

2. driving class was canceled so I had a slower day

3. Completed and submitted my assessment that took me 3 months to complete
Forum: Self Harm September 12th 2022, 07:40 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

Day three. I feel like I'm crawling
Forum: Self Harm September 11th 2022, 01:29 AM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

one day I guess
Forum: Music September 9th 2022, 10:09 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 988
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How many ABBA songs are ABBA?

I thought it was a trivia question about the band ABBA like to say that some songs were not really their own
Forum: General June 12th 2022, 02:42 AM
Replies: 9
Views: 3,884
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What are you doing for the environment?

I recycle and try to buy used items instead of new. In the past I've tried making various "eco-art" projects but I often didn't love the final product. At my college I joined the sustainability club...
Forum: Friends and Family May 18th 2022, 12:15 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 4,245
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: My mom made me cry today

Hey there,

How are you feeling now that some time passed? I am going to respectfully disagree with the above users and say that no, this doesn't sound like normal conflict.

Yes, it is normal...
Forum: Education and Careers May 5th 2022, 10:09 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 3,661
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What was your favorite grade level in school?

I have specific teachers but not entire school years. I struggled tremendously but no one realized or cared enough because my scores were often high. The level of stress to get there was unreal...
Forum: Religion and Spirituality, Science and Philosophy April 26th 2022, 11:48 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 3,681
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: frum jews

I am somewhat frum in the sense that strictly speaking I keep kosher and shabbat...however my feelings towards judaism is complicated and I am currently living in a place where I am practicing...
Forum: Pets April 8th 2022, 01:02 AM
Replies: 3
Views: 4,019
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Seaweed for dogs?

I cannot speak for dogs or animals with health conditions. My cat loved dry seaweed sheets but it wasn't used as a substitute to medicine. He enjoyed the olive oil as it helped him clean his fur and...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies April 7th 2022, 10:00 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 3,265
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Enneagram

I got really into enneagrams for a while. I can't tell what I am anymore. I thougjt I was a 2 for the longest time. I then thought I'm a 4 but now I think I might be a 5w4 or a 6. I don't know what's...
Forum: Home Life, Raising Kids and Managing Money April 4th 2022, 02:06 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 3,609
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: To kid or not to kid... That is the question

I've always wanted children but I have a trauma history that would probably lead me to only doing foster care or adopting but I cannot do that because like others have said I dont feel confident in...
Forum: Self Expression February 15th 2022, 11:46 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 2,697
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
chronic CAN'T

Chronic CAN'T

how do i keep going, how does it work i just dont get how it is possible after this much pain this much suffering I can't do it anymore

I can't do it anymore
i dont want to do...
Forum: Adult Survivors February 2nd 2022, 01:38 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 2,121
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I'm close to giving up on therapy

Well this thread hasn't been closed for nearly a month and I was hoping it would be by now and that I won't look back with the opportunity I has but nope. I'm back to not having a therapist. I am on...
Forum: Film and Television January 27th 2022, 05:14 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 1,646
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What shows have you seen with really good character development?

The Good Place. All the main characters grow so much!
Forum: Adult Survivors January 5th 2022, 09:44 AM
Replies: 3
Views: 2,121
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I'm close to giving up on therapy

Hi Sarah,

Thank you so much for this reply and sharing your experiences. I read through all of it and can see the varied experiences. You should also know that though I didn't reply immediately,...
Forum: Adult Survivors November 21st 2021, 12:24 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 2,121
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Angry I'm close to giving up on therapy

In the summer of 2012, when I first started being active here, I decide to go to therapy. I was 18 years old and had vague recollections of playing with play dough at a therapy outpatient clinic and...
Forum: Self Expression November 10th 2021, 10:58 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 3,460
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
No One's Child

No One's Child

What do you see when you see me?
Are your eyes drawn immediately to my crooked teeth as I smile? Do you stare in disgust?
Do you hear my stammer when I speak? Do you notice my...
Forum: Self Harm November 10th 2021, 01:53 AM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

I honestly lost track. It could be a few months at this point. I just know that I'm on the verge of relapsing. I
I try to not hurt myself so that I can perform better at work than I would with self...
Forum: Self Harm September 22nd 2021, 11:54 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

I am going to say about 22 days ago. Only came here because the urges were quite strong to the point of it messing with my sleep...waking up to crying spells with strong urges and I've been racking...
Forum: Friends and Family September 20th 2021, 04:42 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 7,058
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Decisions About Dad

Hi Kate*,

I want to start off by saying that as someone who has a father who is similar to yours and have had therapists say similar things (acknowledging the dys functioning but suggesting I...
Forum: Mental Health July 18th 2021, 12:37 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,917
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Got me worked up

this thread can be closed please.
Forum: Meditation and Yoga July 12th 2021, 10:19 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 2,586
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Meditation is hard for me - can't visualize

I used to be in a group called "Mindfulness in Everything You Do" I liked it because it felt realistic and manageable which is what I needed at the time. I won't say I can't visualize but I don't get...
Forum: Self Expression July 11th 2021, 03:02 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 4,713
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Late Night Crisis

I can relate to these kind of weird realizations about time and the self. I even look in the mirror and feel like I look different from day to day. Sometimes I spend a lot of time tracing back my...
Forum: Mental Health July 2nd 2021, 07:12 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,917
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Got me worked up

Hi everyone,
Thank you for getting back to me. I think that for now I will stick with her. I think I can get over those minor comments as long as I continue to remind myself that she does not mean...
Forum: Mental Health June 23rd 2021, 06:44 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,917
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Got me worked up

I don't know why but during the last therapy session after I shared my art piece over video my therapist said something that got me really worked up after. As a way to ask me how sharing the art...
Forum: Loneliness June 7th 2021, 11:58 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 5,140
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I know I'm not in crisis anymore and...

Hi Hollie,

Thank you for your response. It helped to hear all this.

I would say that I used to have a wider group of friends, enough that if several were unavailable that a few would be...
Forum: Self Expression June 7th 2021, 11:50 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 4,998
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Ghost of Myself

Thank you!
Forum: Self Expression May 25th 2021, 12:14 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 4,998
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Ghost of Myself

Idk.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Bl23BFSleHgArS0I7LycPAWB7mRO0dFa/view?usp=drivesdk
Forum: Work, Studying and Learning May 4th 2021, 12:20 AM
Replies: 1
Views: 2,701
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
working within helping profession while recovering from relational trauma

Hi,

So I'm an elementary school teacher and I taught middle school last year and before that worked as a direct support professional etc. All my jobs had in common that it is a human services...
Forum: Loneliness April 11th 2021, 08:23 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 5,140
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
I know I'm not in crisis anymore and...

and I'm in a better place on so many levels. But it seems like depression still lingers. The aloneness and isolation I feel can be unbearable. The desperate need to feel validated and heard and...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies April 1st 2021, 11:44 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 4,336
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: looking for support/advice on how to get started

This is helpful, thank you :)

Something I learned about myself is that I need to find my own way of getting organized because trying to do it someone else's way is like trying to learn a new...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies March 31st 2021, 07:35 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 4,336
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: looking for support/advice on how to get started

so I actually have multiple separate ideas and I kind of bounce between each of them without ever settling down and writing just one. Right now I am back to my "Dear Turtle" idea. Basically I want to...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies March 30th 2021, 06:18 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 4,336
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
looking for support/advice on how to get started

Hey everyone,

So I want to write a realistic fiction story...been wanting to write this story for a really long time now
It has parallels to my own life but without it being a full blown memoir...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies March 30th 2021, 06:15 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 4,379
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Looking for something more

so a few updates since I posted this^

-I went to a zoom poetry and prose sharing and shared my poem "Her Story Isn't Over Yet" and it went ok. I was very nervous. I got some meaningful feedback,...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies March 24th 2021, 09:24 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 4,379
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Looking for something more

Hey everyone,

I know that in the past I had mentioned wanting to form a peer based support group for anyone who is working on the Complex PTSD workbook. Well I think it is safe to say I paused on...
Forum: Self Expression March 24th 2021, 12:37 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 5,770
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Her story isnt over yet

Thank you everyone
Forum: Food and Recipes March 18th 2021, 03:46 AM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,035
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Do you like spicy food?

I like garlic, black pepper, sometimes serachi sauce not always. Not sure what birdseye chili is.

My family is middle eastern but because we lived bear a Chinatown we often bought good from...
Forum: Self Expression March 15th 2021, 01:11 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 5,770
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Her story isnt over yet

She is the one who figures it all out in the end
With a cereal box and a hole-punched fork in her hand,
She weaves thread; using ordinary objects she had found

She does what is familiar;...
Forum: General Health March 10th 2021, 09:29 AM
Replies: 7
Views: 9,408
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: My sister's condition

I'm so glad Julie is feeling better. I'm concerned that as a 13 year old you're being put as Julie's carer. That to me sounds unsettling. Wendi told us you're 13 years old. You are still a child. I'm...
Forum: Self Harm March 3rd 2021, 09:22 AM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

2 years, 7 months and 3 weeks. One week short from 2 years and 8 months.



Been having a spike of SH urges though.
Forum: Self Harm February 9th 2021, 11:08 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,662
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Is self harming automatically considered an 'emergency'?

Thank you everyone. We talked about it yesterday. We came up with an agreement that she won't bombard me with questions about it and I don't have to hide it either. I can even bring it up and say I...
Forum: Self Harm January 31st 2021, 03:22 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,662
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Is self harming automatically considered an 'emergency'?

Thsnk uou for the replies. I guess I will find outg tomorrow evening what her reaction is.
Forum: Mental Health January 31st 2021, 03:17 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 10,454
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Struggling in therapy, in life

Meant to reply to this sooner and say thank you. I like the idea of prioritising within the email.
I don't have an after therapy routine but I think it would be good to have one. I usually try to...
Forum: Self Expression January 29th 2021, 10:46 AM
Replies: 7
Views: 6,157
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Only One

Thank you.

I'm running thin on my coping skills. I went to sleep past 1am trying to fight this. Writing did help but I need a stronger "dose" and that doesn't necessarily happen with creative...
Forum: Self Harm January 29th 2021, 01:07 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 7,662
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Is self harming automatically considered an 'emergency'?

Hi,

So I'm having very strong urges to self harm and I have this thing working out pretty well so far, getting to email my therapist once in between sessions. One of the guidelines is that if it...
Forum: Self Expression January 29th 2021, 12:26 AM
Replies: 7
Views: 6,157
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Only One

Would only one be so bad?
Would only one ruin my record?
I have a clean track of 2 years and several months
Would only one cancel out the progress I've had?

I don't want to appear weak
in...
Forum: Self Expression January 26th 2021, 11:42 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 6,363
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What I want you to know

Thank you everyone
Forum: Self Harm January 22nd 2021, 01:37 AM
Replies: 101
Views: 14,924
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How are you beating self-harm?

I put temporary tattoos of cats on my arm
Forum: Good Days! January 19th 2021, 02:44 AM
Replies: 868
Views: 27,155
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What made you smile today?

a first grader gave me what she calls a "love rock" which is basically a giant rock with a paper heart taped onto it
Forum: Mental Health January 11th 2021, 12:32 AM
Replies: 12
Views: 10,722
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How open are you about your mental health?

I am open here and on certain online support groups I've shared personal stuff. I'm not open to any of my coworkers not my boss at work (principal of the school I work at) There is a reading...
Forum: Mental Health January 10th 2021, 11:30 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 10,454
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Struggling in therapy, in life

Thank you for your thorough response. I tried the email thing and sent her an email. I guess tomorrow evening will be when we discuss it at session. I have used email with one former therapist in...
Forum: Self Harm January 6th 2021, 09:20 AM
Replies: 101
Views: 14,924
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How are you beating self-harm?

I went to sleep on the early side (9pm) last night even though I had stuff to do. I just had to do something for myself and I will deal with the consequences today (scrambling to get the work done...
Forum: Mental Health January 5th 2021, 12:22 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 10,454
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Struggling in therapy, in life

Hi,

I have not made a thread here in a while and was trying to hold off reaching out, trying to do it all on my own.

I am seeing an individual therapist one time a week. She is an intern and...
Forum: Self Harm December 31st 2020, 02:36 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

Apparently, 2 whole years and 6 whole months and 20 something days. Well I stopped shortly before June 10th 2018 so I just use the 10th of every month as my marker but still.
Forum: Games and Things December 29th 2020, 06:12 AM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

can you just stop ruining things with everything you say? it is always a complaint or putting a negative spin to something or stealing someone else's spotlight.

Why are you reaching out to me? It...
Forum: Self Expression December 21st 2020, 01:09 PM
Replies: 5
Non-PG13: Dear K
Views: 6,194
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Dear K

Thank you everyone for reading and replying. I'm really glad I chose to post it here rather than to send it to her. I had her email address and almost sent it to her. The email is still sittibg in my...
Forum: Current Events and Debates December 20th 2020, 09:51 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,390
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Corona Virus.

since covid I've taken 1 antibody test, which I didn't have and 3 pcr tests (nose swab, not rapid) Today I had my 3rd test and awaiting results. I have been exposed multiple people who tested...
Forum: Loneliness December 18th 2020, 10:01 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 6,097
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: LONELY. ABANDONDED

This is manipulative behavior. It does not make you a BAD person. It makes your BEHAVIOR manipulative. Regardless of your diagnosis, regardless if it is intentional or not. If a child throws a...
Forum: Loneliness December 18th 2020, 01:12 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 6,097
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: LONELY. ABANDONDED

And you know something, I mentioned in my other post that I'm trying to help you out as a friend but I am also not interested in being taken for granted so if you are not doing the legwork to...
Forum: Loneliness December 18th 2020, 01:07 AM
Replies: 16
Views: 6,097
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: LONELY. ABANDONDED

[EDITED] I truly believe that you need to take a good hard look at yourself in the mirror (inner mirror that is, I couldn't care less about your physical appearance) and think hard about what you are...
Forum: Mental Health December 16th 2020, 10:23 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 10,329
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Feeling low. Mental health low.

Hi,

I hope that today you are doing better. Now that it has been about a day later and maybe you are doing better, I am wondering if you can make an observation between your original post and the...
Forum: Self Expression December 16th 2020, 06:38 PM
Replies: 5
Non-PG13: Dear K
Views: 6,194
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Dear K

Dear K,
You may not remember me, but I remember you. You had been my therapist from October 2013-March 2014, ending in you calling 911 and me being hospitalized at the psych unit. Then you told me...
Forum: General Health December 3rd 2020, 08:32 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 5,560
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Medication

I've been finding numerous ways to avoid psychotropic medication. Since I was 18 and I'm almost 27 now. I'm actually an inch closer to considering it as an option.


I'm really afraid though. I...
Forum: Self Expression November 29th 2020, 07:27 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 6,343
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
There is More To Life Than This

My head spins from these demands.
And to top it off:
Go online to help with homework while babysitting 3 children in person.
Where did the regard for human life go?

Do not be fooled by the...
Forum: General November 22nd 2020, 08:56 PM
Replies: 14
Views: 8,517
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: What items do you frequently lose?

I lose my train of thought a lot. For comfort I tell myself "leave it alone and it will come home wagging its tail behind them" I also say this to someone who forgets what they wanted to tell me and...
Forum: Mental Health October 28th 2020, 10:02 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 10,717
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: outgrowing my therapist, help!!

I appreciate the reply to my post. It happens to be that it is not really accurate to my situation. In general, it would be wise to not comment on someone else's post by telling them that their...
Forum: Neurodiversity October 19th 2020, 02:16 AM
Replies: 2
Views: 6,357
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: I have tourttes

I do not have tourette's but I watched a film called "In Front of the Class" based on a true story about a teacher who has Tourette's and it is an inspiring story. As someone who has some of the...
Forum: Mental Health October 17th 2020, 10:44 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,684
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: CPTSD workbook

I am not afraid of hard work. I will speak to Robin.
Forum: Mental Health October 16th 2020, 08:31 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,684
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: CPTSD workbook

Thank you Meloncholia and Celyn. I am realizing now how complicated it is. I am not sure I want to continue with it. I wouldnt want to trigger anyone or even myself into a crisis.

A memtor of...
Forum: Self Expression October 11th 2020, 10:51 PM
Replies: 13
Views: 2,511
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Some sketches

Because these specifically are movie characters. It is the first time I shared something not original. I guess I do this kind of work whenever I'm feeling blocked so I kinda get myself moving again
Forum: Mental Health October 9th 2020, 06:34 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,684
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
CPTSD workbook

Hey,

Has anyone worked on the CPTSD workbook by Arielle Schwartz and found it helpful? I am having a difficult time doing it because it makes me feel alone after and craving connection. And it is...
Forum: Self Expression October 9th 2020, 05:50 PM
Replies: 13
Views: 2,511
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Some sketches

Thank you everyone! I do want to make sure to mention t hid since I haven't already: I did use reference images from the internet and I do not own either nor do I claim to own either one. This is my...
Forum: Self Expression October 6th 2020, 10:36 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 3,242
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Writing my life story in Fairy Tale form

So my therapist gave me the prompt of writing my life story as a fairy tale. I finished it and it is 7 pages long typed and single spaced but doesn't sound magical at all. I am embarrassed to show it...
Forum: Arrivals and Departures October 4th 2020, 11:07 PM
Replies: 12
Views: 3,120
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Leaving

Frankie, I remember when I first joined in 2011/2012 seeing your posts and I truly admire how far you've come! Take care of yourself and know you're always welcomed here.
Forum: Self Expression September 10th 2020, 09:20 AM
Replies: 13
Views: 2,511
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Some sketches

Hey Leah,

It is actually not paint! I made a mistake on nemo so I went over it with white acrylic paint and a toothpick so it looks uniform. Then I sorta made the mistake again (hence the slight...
Forum: Self Expression September 8th 2020, 08:05 PM
Replies: 13
Views: 2,511
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Some sketches

Hey guys!

Haven't been posting here in a while. Wanted to share my latest artwork with you.

Nemo-I watched Finding Nemo a few weeks ago and I realized how timely it was. The movie Finding...
Forum: Self Expression September 7th 2020, 11:54 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 5,640
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Treat yourself (like a pet)

I love it! This brightened up my day
Forum: Self Harm August 20th 2020, 07:43 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

2 years, 2 months, 10 days.
Forum: Self Expression August 10th 2020, 06:43 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 6,363
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
What I want you to know

When I am activated,
dysregulated
Above or below
the window, of
tolerance
I fold into myself,
silence
Unable to speak,
my words escape me.
Forum: Mental Health July 12th 2020, 02:52 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 10,717
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: outgrowing my therapist, help!!

Thank you so much, this was helpful. I have been told by a couple of people that it sounds like it is best to give it one more shot before deciding to change therapists. Someone suggested I let her...
Forum: Education and Careers June 30th 2020, 03:24 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 5,070
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Geometry

This original post is from 2 years ago so I'm not sure why the thread re-opened. I would like to help if still needed. I am a math teacher and I actually like the essay prompt. It is teaching...
Forum: Mental Health June 28th 2020, 06:37 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 10,717
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
outgrowing my therapist, help!!

I am sometimes confused whether I have Complex, Chronic or Acute PTSD, or perhaps a hybrid of all 3 interlayed. I've been watching videos on YouTube this morning on how to heal from ptsd. There were...
Forum: Arrivals and Departures June 26th 2020, 03:01 AM
Replies: 8
Views: 3,249
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Might take a break

So proud of you! Good luck!
Forum: Current Events and Debates June 8th 2020, 11:26 AM
Replies: 30
Views: 11,888
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Riots in America.

I attended a peaceful protest. it was 100% peaceful. Nothing happened to me. There were mostly white folks, some people of color non black and some black. The protest represented somewhat of what my...
Forum: Self Expression June 8th 2020, 11:11 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 2,961
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Confusion

Thank you! I have not been able to write complete poems lately. I sometimes jot down ideas but I am often lost for words. So it is meaningful to me that I wrote this.
Forum: Arrivals and Departures May 25th 2020, 11:47 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 2,902
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Hey!

Thank you Omen, Odyne, Serendipity!



We shall!



Definitely got to a point that i have consistent ups. I also dip to a low but I try to not let it get too low. It is a struggle.
Forum: Self Expression May 25th 2020, 09:58 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 2,961
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Confusion

Why is it that every time
I try to talk about it
My body shakes uncontrollably?
Like it is remembering
What it feels like to be in chains.
Perhaps my body protects my mind
Warding off the...
Forum: Arrivals and Departures May 18th 2020, 12:04 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 2,074
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Hey!

Welcome back Jess!
Forum: Arrivals and Departures May 13th 2020, 05:15 PM
Replies: 11
Views: 2,192
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Shady's back.

Hi Corrie,
I recognize your username! Welcome back
Forum: Self Expression May 12th 2020, 11:24 AM
Replies: 6
Triggering (SH): Untitled
Views: 3,815
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Untitled

I enjoyed reading this and can relate to some parts of it. I loved these lines in particular.








Keep writing <3
Forum: Self Harm May 11th 2020, 12:02 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

getting close to 2 years
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 11th 2020, 02:26 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,390
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Corona Virus.

I leave my house about once a week (usually Saturday or Sunday) and take a walk around the block or in a straight line. Yesterday was very restless so I walked for over an hour with a mask on. I...
Forum: Arrivals and Departures May 10th 2020, 08:46 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 2,902
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Hey!

Hey everyone,

Nothing super official, just wanted to say hi. Now with COVID and I'm working remotely anyway (excuses :dem:)
I figured why not stop by here more often.

I am looking to start...
Forum: Self Expression May 10th 2020, 05:13 PM
Replies: 17
Views: 8,732
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Stop Feeling Sorry For Yourself

Hi Mark,

I want to start by quoting lines in your poem that I did enjoy.



The tone is ambiguous but if I can see the desire to empower a person who feels defeated. It is a stretch for me...
Forum: Arrivals and Departures May 16th 2019, 07:21 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 2,263
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Greetings

Hey there,
Welcome to teen help. I see that you found your way to the arrivals and departures for him. That's great!

My name is Violet and I am a community mentor and I am here to help if you...
Forum: Self Expression April 1st 2019, 03:02 PM
Replies: 5
Triggering (Abuse): You don't get to
Views: 1,016
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
You don't get to

You don't get to hold me hostage and
Complain about my presence;
how I take up too much space.
You don't get to blindfold my eyes and tell me
I cannot see
how my eyes are not working
How...
Forum: Lifestyle and Hobbies February 17th 2019, 03:54 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 5,141
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Crocheting

I know how to do double stitch crochet but not very good at doing anything else nor how to change yarns or anything but I would love to continue this at some point and maybe we can chat. I tried...
Forum: Mental Health February 17th 2019, 05:06 AM
Replies: 1
Views: 3,624
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Triggers at work and school

I am having a hard time at work and I am at the brink of quitting. What's keeping me stay longer is not having something else lined up that will help me pay my bills and expenses but I am working on...
Forum: Self Expression February 13th 2019, 05:03 PM
Replies: 4
Triggering (Abuse): Poem about struggles at work
Views: 2,387
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Poem about struggles at work

The father told me "sorry for scaring you" after yelling ruthlessly at his 7 year old disabled child. It has become constant. I did not notice it before because he wouldn't come home till later in...
Forum: Self Harm December 12th 2018, 05:03 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

six months and a day. When I started counting but it's been about 2 extra weeks. Also I still skin pick :(
Forum: Games and Things November 12th 2018, 02:07 PM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

I know "feelings are not facts" but I don't like hearing that. If I say "I feel like a child is stuck inside me" etc and you tell me "you're not a child" and justify by ranting about your "hard...
Forum: Self Expression November 7th 2018, 06:08 PM
Replies: 5
Triggering: forearm
Views: 814
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: forearm

Thank you everyone. Writing really helps, it brings me so much relief of my emotions stuck inside of me. I felt so much lighter when I put how I was feeling into words and shared it, it was like I...
Forum: Self Expression October 30th 2018, 06:40 PM
Replies: 5
Triggering: forearm
Views: 814
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
forearm

I haven't wrote poems in like months. So here it goes. Gulp :? :? :?




My index finger of flesh and bones
Slides down from my forearm to my wrist.
A place of which my younger self
Spent...
Forum: Self Expression October 28th 2018, 05:57 AM
Replies: 9
Views: 5,078
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: The Pretenders (My Recovery Poem)

I really liked this poem, thank you for sharing!
Forum: Self Harm September 23rd 2018, 04:23 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

Still skin pick but cutting free is 3 months and 13 days. Thats when I moved so I started counting from there but i stopped a few weeks earlier. So closer to 4 months. Havent gotten that far along...
Forum: Self Expression July 14th 2018, 12:20 AM
Replies: 5
Triggering (Suicide): idk
Views: 719
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
idk

Papa did not want children
Papa wanted a happy adult life
He wanted his life to be better than his prior years
He wanted to work, while his wife was the stay at home mommy
So when mommy was no...
Forum: Self Expression June 2nd 2018, 08:08 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 798
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Starting from Scratch

How can you do this?

You went on a trip
Left us all alone
No money, no food, barely a home
You took the food stamp card with you
Which you cannot even use while in travel.


How can you...
Forum: Self Expression June 2nd 2018, 05:42 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 684
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Oh Uncle

Oh Uncle, you silly Uncle,
You tell me what I do in life is
useless,
worthless,
pointless.
That the degree I earned is taking me nowhere.
For the last three years since I graduated, the...
Forum: Self Expression May 30th 2018, 03:17 PM
Replies: 4
Triggering (Grieving): poem "I'm so sorry"
Views: 2,102
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: poem "I'm so sorry"

Thank you <3 <3 <3
Forum: Self Expression May 25th 2018, 03:50 AM
Replies: 4
Triggering (Grieving): poem "I'm so sorry"
Views: 2,102
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
poem "I'm so sorry"

A little background. I have to leave my fur baby behind in order to save my life. I can't take him with me. I am devastated. I know this isn't any good but I was crying too hard. I don't know why...
Forum: Religion and Spirituality, Science and Philosophy May 20th 2018, 06:22 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 4,679
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Wanting to Explore Religion

Hey Chris,
Wanted to start by saying I'm very sorry for your loss. :hug:
Next is the religious stuff. Obviously religion and spirituality can be really personal but it is also about connecting...
Forum: Announcements May 13th 2018, 03:39 PM
Replies: 11
Views: 3,867
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Introducing loads of new volunteer roles.

wow this list is so thorough and chat mentor is back!
Forum: Games and Things April 26th 2018, 09:29 PM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

It hurts that youre hurting but you are putting me as the one being responsible for your suicidal thoughts and it makes me feel like a murderer. Telling me you didnt sleep all night and "is this how...
Forum: Anxiety and Stress April 24th 2018, 12:34 PM
Replies: 3
Triggering (Suicide): Anxiety
Views: 2,489
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Anxiety

I hate anxiety too. Thank you for sharing. Hope you keep writing
Forum: Games and Things April 19th 2018, 10:55 AM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

I am so scared. What if i dont ever move out? What if i do but things still dont get better? Or it does get better till i self sabatoge?

Seriously, hiding the garlic grater and telling me it flew...
Forum: Self Expression March 29th 2018, 03:17 AM
Replies: 5
Views: 608
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
what was my original sin?

What was the original sin?
Before I started yelling
Before I started slamming doors,
I was a timid child, frightened of the world.
I had no intention to be wild, or out of control.
Before I...
Forum: Self Expression March 27th 2018, 05:39 PM
Replies: 4
Triggering: child of scorn
Views: 598
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: child of scorn

Thank you everyone for the feedback.
Forum: Self Expression March 13th 2018, 08:47 AM
Replies: 4
Triggering: child of scorn
Views: 598
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
child of scorn

Someone like me is better kept away
I knew this since the day, I was born
So many things left to say
But who would want to hear the child of Scorn?

The words dont ever reach my lips,
Lucky...
Forum: Self Expression February 24th 2018, 07:12 PM
Replies: 6
Triggering: how do people do it?
Views: 502
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: how do people do it?

thank you both
Forum: Self Expression February 24th 2018, 04:48 PM
Replies: 6
Triggering: how do people do it?
Views: 502
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
how do people do it?

She might be been just another statistic
But Deborah Danner was from MY community
She was well known and loved
She was in a mental health crisis
The police shot her in her home

How do...
Forum: Self Expression February 19th 2018, 03:02 AM
Replies: 3
Triggering (Suicide): Returning to my prison cell
Views: 554
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Returning to my prison cell

Thank you Dez



Thank you Jenna
Forum: Music February 17th 2018, 08:16 PM
Replies: 12,000
Views: 495,562
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Song/Quote of the day!

These streets remind me of quicksand (quicksand)
When you're on it, you'll keep goin' down (goin' down)
And there's no one to hold on to
And there's no one to pull you out
You keep on fallin'...
Forum: Self Expression February 16th 2018, 01:14 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 430
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: just another tool for you

Thank you so much, Dez



Thank you so much Svisttt.



Thank you so much Jenna.
Forum: Religion and Spirituality, Science and Philosophy February 12th 2018, 05:09 AM
Replies: 7
Views: 5,325
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Will Praying to move work?

I believe in the power of prayer. Part of this is envisioning where you want to be, which honestly the Law of Attraction, Vision Board, meditation are similar options. Affirmations, mantras,...
Forum: Self Expression February 11th 2018, 04:58 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 430
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
just another tool for you

i am another tool in your toolshed
Some days i get taken out and shown a little love
i am told praises of how useful i am; how helpful i have been to them
Other days i am not so lucky; i don't...
Forum: Self Expression February 9th 2018, 01:23 AM
Replies: 3
Triggering (Suicide): Returning to my prison cell
Views: 554
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Returning to my prison cell

Banging on cages,
rage takes over,
logic flies out of my brain,
I am going insane

Fighting till my voice is strained and my knuckles are bruised
I was dying to live, begging to escape. ...
Forum: Self Expression January 23rd 2018, 08:47 PM
Replies: 11
Views: 1,981
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Sociology project: children's book in poem form.

Hey there,
I really love this poem. It's cute, informative and beautiful!

I have to go and dont have much access to internet but I will try to share my thoughts on what each page can look like....
Forum: Self Harm January 17th 2018, 02:42 PM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

about 12 hours.
Forum: Self Expression January 11th 2018, 01:40 PM
Replies: 6
Triggering: tape recording
Views: 620
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
tape recording

After a long bout of writer's block. I tried to write this. IDK.






Somewhere deep down inside an old rusty water well
A child sits at the bottom there
She wants to be held, she wants to...
Forum: General Health January 10th 2018, 05:47 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 2,694
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: anyone uses NAC for medication?

Yes, that's what it is, it is easier to call it NAC xD. And that explains it then, thank you :P

I will try having a meal with it consistently.

Thank you, I hope so too.
Forum: General Health January 9th 2018, 11:21 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 2,694
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
anyone uses NAC for medication?

My psychiatric nurse practioner had told me to try NAC because I am hesitant to go with antidepressants or anti-anxiety or mood stabilizers from pharmaceuticals. But NAC has given me bad stomach...
Forum: Self Expression January 1st 2018, 08:39 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: no one knew her
Views: 543
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: no one knew her

thank you all of you. Gonna try writing something one of these days but been struggling with articulation.
Forum: Self Expression December 7th 2017, 09:53 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: no one knew her
Views: 543
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
no one knew her

At the kitchen table, the family of three
Sit down to eat, a perfect picture
They break their bread
They giggle and grin
Together, they win
Together, they love, and are loved

In the...
Forum: Birthdays! November 21st 2017, 02:39 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 1,717
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: My 21st Birthday

I would be so angry at friend 1 so I can see why your mother is upset with friend 1.

It seems a big strange that he bought a jacket for you and then wanted you to pay him back and then on top of...
Forum: Self Expression November 13th 2017, 12:54 AM
Replies: 4
Triggering: Lost
Views: 690
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Lost

I have lost that sense of myself;
The bursts of passion I used to have.
I lost the small moments of insight;
The joy of exploring my own path.
The persisting hope that the sun would rise ...
Forum: Games and Things November 5th 2017, 09:45 PM
Replies: 10,423
Views: 406,920
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

I wish you could love me. I wish that even if you don't love me now that you would see me as someone worth trying to love, someone to want a familial relationship wit. But j have to accept the bitter...
Forum: Games and Things November 5th 2017, 10:37 AM
Replies: 1,754
Views: 58,608
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Silly Bans #3.

Banned because your username sounds like atomic bomb and your name sounds like a kind of pasta
Forum: Self Expression November 4th 2017, 06:55 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 518
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Just these intense feelings put on a page

I walk around, a rope tied around my neck
Every breath is insecure
Uncertain of the next, time
My facts are not the facts
Complete breakdown of what is the truth

I try to be the perfect...
Forum: Self Expression October 15th 2017, 10:50 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 582
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
One of those ranty poems

Can't really think straight so it is just gonna be a sloppy satitical rant with stanzas this time



You've been my job specialist:
You have to get a job that pays 100k at least
You have to...
Forum: Music October 12th 2017, 09:53 PM
Replies: 12,000
Views: 495,562
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Song/Quote of the day!

Quote

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


[/QUOTE]
Forum: Self Expression October 11th 2017, 03:44 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 514
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Skogfoxen

So i learned yesterday how to make a fox origami.

It isn't part of the therapy that I'm doing so I think it is okay to post. This was like a side thing just for fun.

At first it was a fox and...
Forum: Anxiety and Stress October 8th 2017, 04:06 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 5,458
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Social anxiety affecting me

I'm at a point where I'm talking and interacting but before+after is what's hard. I start to feel very embarrassed of myself and very insecure. I replay everything over and over and get down about...
Forum: Self Expression October 4th 2017, 12:48 AM
Replies: 11
Triggering (SH): How's that for a tiger?
Views: 842
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How's that for a tiger?

Thank you Chess and Marcus
Forum: General Health October 3rd 2017, 01:15 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 7,146
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: The Good Doctor

hey there Essa,

I totally feel you on that. There are now more opportunities for people with autism, we see them going to college, getting jobs and if not, they're in programs to help them...
Forum: Self Harm September 27th 2017, 06:39 PM
Replies: 247
Views: 19,641
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How are you beating self harm? Vol 2

listening to a video that is part of the peer specialist course while writing notes
Forum: Self Expression September 26th 2017, 04:12 PM
Replies: 11
Triggering (SH): How's that for a tiger?
Views: 842
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How's that for a tiger?

thank you all of you for the feedback!
Forum: Education and Careers September 20th 2017, 11:13 PM
Replies: 19
Views: 2,776
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Are you honest about your mental health at work and school?

I have mostly not been open. My relatives don't know I have a diagnosis, nor do my immediate family even know the multiple diagnosis I have.

At school and work I think people see me as the one...
Forum: Self Expression September 17th 2017, 02:54 AM
Replies: 11
Triggering (SH): How's that for a tiger?
Views: 842
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
How's that for a tiger?

A tiger does not change its stripes
Not when the stripes are blood red and skin white
So easy to lose sight
Trapped behind bars
The way out will leave scars
Oh, they will leave scars
...
Forum: Self Expression August 31st 2017, 11:26 PM
Replies: 4
Views: 603
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Abstract Pastel drawing with artist's interpretation

Click "here" (https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B7H_Axi1kQWESmwyR0pDUVN3YUU/view?usp=drivesdk)


I am putting the trigger warning because if tye visual as well as the topic of the drawing and...
Forum: Self Expression August 31st 2017, 09:26 PM
Replies: 7
Views: 723
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
My first needle felt project

This (https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B7H_Axi1kQWEbUUzcnRUdnNaMDg/view?usp=drivesdk) is my first needle felt project. Obviously it's a kitty cat <3

Click on the word "this"

Back in 2013, I...
Forum: Self Expression August 31st 2017, 03:49 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 584
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Affirmation stones

Thank you everyone for the feedback. I am sad that the "courage" stone that I was going to give my friend S, had broke in my bag. It is cracked but not like split in two. This is the second time I...
Forum: Self Expression August 29th 2017, 12:02 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 584
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Affirmation stones

There's a link that you can click, on the word "here"
Forum: Self Expression August 29th 2017, 12:39 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 1,229
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: clay stones with affirmations, mantras, etc

Thank you all of you for sharing you experiences and feedback. Who can I speak to about an article idea?
Forum: Self Expression August 28th 2017, 11:33 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 584
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Affirmation stones

I made these. Affirmation stones.
There are 3

"Hope" I gave to one sister

"Courage" I will give to my friend S

"There is strength within me" I am keeping.
Forum: Self Expression August 25th 2017, 05:16 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 1,652
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: My stupid poem

It isn't stupid at all. I actually really enjoyed it! I hope you keep writing.
Forum: Self Harm August 25th 2017, 02:19 AM
Replies: 20,919
Views: 662,372
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Self harm free!

haven't cut in like 48 hours I think.
Struggling with my eating though
Forum: Self Expression August 23rd 2017, 02:06 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering (Abuse): Lazy and stupid
Views: 745
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Lazy and stupid

Thank you all of you
Forum: Self Expression August 23rd 2017, 02:04 PM
Replies: 4
Triggering (Suicide): The glue
Views: 690
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: The glue

Thank you Dez and Jenna
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 22nd 2017, 02:02 PM
Replies: 14
Views: 6,573
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Thoughts on credit cards?

I agree with what's been said above. There was a time when I didn't believe in credit cards. I had decided I simply don't want one ever because I don't want to be a slave to debt. Well since then...
Forum: Self Expression August 20th 2017, 06:36 PM
Replies: 4
Triggering (Suicide): The glue
Views: 690
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
The glue

Little Sue is stuck to her bed
Father says it's all in her head
Grandma says get off your lazy ass
Mother says hurry up or you'll be late to class

On most days she can get herself up and go ...
Forum: Self Expression August 17th 2017, 04:24 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 1,229
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
clay stones with affirmations, mantras, etc

Hey all of you lovely people,

Soooooo....I can't say I've been free from self harm entirely. I still have been cutting myself and skin picking though not nearly as much as I used to. Anyway...
...
Forum: General Health August 16th 2017, 12:55 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 2,906
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: How hard is it to wean off your medication?

Dez, I know this is a bit off topic but I'm wondering if there is someone you can work with to find you affordable care or medicaid. I know the Healthcare system is messy but medicaid would be ideal...
Forum: Why Me? August 14th 2017, 01:22 AM
Replies: 2,130
Views: 56,549
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm not dead yet and I wish i were.
Forum: Self Expression August 14th 2017, 01:00 AM
Replies: 5
Triggering (SH): 16th blade
Views: 626
Posted By NeuroBeautiful
16th blade

Cleaning up my bedroom
books on their proper shelf
clothes stashed away
Every item has a home
A place to stay, when not in use

Blades do not belong here
There is no excuse
So I dispose...
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